New year, new revelations

I don't know if there is any expert who can diagnose this....but after much careful research, I am pretty sure the only conclusion I can come to, is that....

I am a serious level empath.

And it SUCKS.

How can I tell? Based, of course on "unofficial" research:

1) I have always, ALWAYS, said I was born with more than my fair share of nerve endings
2) I suffer from a series of addictions to drown out what I have only been able to identify as "noise"
3) I am not sure what "noise" is, but it has always haunted me
4) I have always had a mandatory rule that any movie or tv show I watch MUST have a happy ending
5) anyone that has come within a half inch of me ends up in a sexual tension issue
6) I find touching strangers to be enormously overwhelming and I son't know why
7) I am highly, HIGHLY, non-confrontational
8) I panic at funerals
9) I panc in crowds, or complex locations, it is just too overwhelming
10) I have a scary sense of intuition, often it creeps people out
11) my IQ is very very high
12) I have always disliked holidays, and for no good reason
13) I am very certain my mother is an extreme empath,she just doesn't get it ( she threw out the tv when I was 13 and left it out for years)
14) people only seem to like me hen they have issues then they disappear
15) I am extroverted to mask when I am overwhelmed
16) sometimes I just "know stuff" and I scare myself
17) I have always preferred chicken or seafood to other meat because I feel stressed when I eat pork or beef
18) kids and animals gravitate to me. It's weird because I don't feel comfortable around strange animals or other people's kids
19) I have a lot of trouble with mysterious allergies etc
20) I can feel when people are hiding things from me or lying
21)my senses are on constant overlord.. ESP smell, touch., taste and it SUCKS
22) people I hardly even know tell me about themselves esp their problems
23) even the smallest bits of clutter distress me horribly
24) I drink to take the edge off

This lst could go on....

I can sense shit and it sucks.

I like the quiet this time of year.......

So help me out, how do I live without wanting to kill myself every day for once and for all? Please if you have any clue I appreciate it!!

The most powerful weapon in the world?

Ah....

The human imagination.

With a little thought, careful wording and timing, a well placed statement can let the guilty conscience of some do allllllll the work for you.

:o)

Fat Barbie vs Insurance

http://www.uproxx.com/webculture/2013/12/heres-2-year-old-fat-barbie-photoshop-people-freaking-facebook/

People are freaking out and/or cheering the concept of a fat Barbie.

And while everyone was distracted or asleep, the insurance companies are saying they will penalize anyone with a waist measurement over a certain number.

Ah, it doesn't matter what you say, as long as it is positive and uplifting. But your actions can be just as vicious and subversive as they need to be because no one will notice, right?

A "meh" sort of Christmas

Christmas was a lot more fun when I didn't have to do thework.

We had a good day, we did, even with the half-ass decorated tree (which is truly complimentary since it only has lights and five random ornaments on it) and the fact we did all of our shopping last Sunday and on Christmas Eve.

No Elf on the shelf frivolity, no baking in our house.... Hell, we are not home half the time.

With me traveling for work and hubs working two jobs, uh, we are tired.

But thing one and thing two were happy with their gifts and didn't have one complaint, and we all laid around and watched movies on tv all day which was a HUGE luxury in our non-stop insanely scheduled lives.  

Spent a little time with extended family too. But nothing to speak of other than sharing some food, conversation, and small gift exchanges

I guess I hate to take the pause button off, but I am relieved that Christmas, in the scheduled and commercial sense, is over. I am weary of the "Facebook perfect" Christmas pics and posts I have seen for the last month, and I am ready to get back to reality. 

Maybe NEXT year I will have that amazing Christmas holiday, but I am not regretting our rather "meh" version either.

So many things coming up in 2014, I am worn out just thinking about it.....

If I bully you into not being a bully does that make me a better person?

Isn't it funny....how the world is becoming more divided about being more inclusive? How we justify being uglier to each other because we rationalize the other person somehow must be an instigator because of a simple difference of opinion? How we bully each other into being "nice"!?

Whatever happened to "sticks and stones may break my bones but words will never hurt me"?

*sigh*

NEW DAY NEW BLOG

Hey all.....

Starting a new blog - sorry for the gothic title, but the intro to this site says it all.

This blog isn't for anyone but me, a place for any synaptic overflow to spill out to, for all the stuff that shuffles around in my head.  A sort of cathartic place for my mind so to speak. 

So thought #1 which started all of this:

If you love your children, and you want to protect them from this world completely - 

Don't have any. 

That said, I'm a MOM. 

Later dudes.